Starting Weight 154.8 - Down 0.8lbs - 2lbs total
I actually felt pretty refreshed this morning. Got into a long discussion with work colleagues today as to what I’m doing and why I’m doing it. I realize I haven’t filled any of you in on it, and now is a good time to do so!
In October of last year, I had a reaction to an antibiotic, which also triggered a panic attack. I ended up in the ER with my first IV ever, and so sick that I couldn’t eat for days. That incident tuned me into my body more than ever before. Every little “off” thing my body felt, I noticed and started analyzing. This caused extreme anxiety, which in turn, caused a bunch of other awful things to happen inside me, including and not limited to, heart burn, headaches, chills, nausea, fogginess…I could go on. One good thing that came from this was weight loss. Within 3 months I lost 20lbs, not even trying. That alone was a wakeup call. I had 20lbs to lose…and I’m nowhere near a healthy weight? Do I feel that weight affects my health? Absolutely, but I also believe that every person is different and their healthy weight can be completely separate from my healthy weight and so I’m not going by any chart to tell me what my healthy weight is. However, I do know that my body is not healthy, and that was and is my main concern.
I heard about the raw diet through connection with vegetarians. I had been a vegetarian in high school and again in my early twenties. I didn’t feel as great as I thought I would, and eventually gave up. Being sick and ridden with anxiety, I started reading about what I had heard about the amazing advantages of a Raw food diet. It claims weight loss, increased focus, increased energy, clear glowing skin, and health. I found out that by cooking foods, we are losing much of the nutrients; nutrients our bodies need to survive. I’m not going to go into an argument as to why eating vegetables, fruits, nuts and seeds is the healthiest diet, and it can seem kind of drastic, but for me, it’s exactly what I need. It’s a Detox. What do I have to lose anyways…besides weight! And how can I NOT be healthier? I’m not taking in any processed foods, flours, gluten, saturated fats, preservatives, chemicals, refined sugars… this alone is major!
Yes, I want to lose weight, but I want to be healthy, and that is my ultimate goal.
I mentioned this is a detox. I am breaking addictions to sweets, like cake and cookies, and carbs like breads and pastas. I’m cleaning my body from all the fried, fatty, sugar loaded foods I ate. My body is going through withdrawals, but not too bad. Mostly I just want a frickin’ piece of bread! I had a moment at lunch when I became like a 2 year old having a tantrum, “I WANT BREAD NOW!” I even threw in a whimper. Lucky for me, I have an incredibly supportive boyfriend and he didn’t cave when I pestered him for a chip or just one little tiny microscopic bite of his sandwich. It only lasted a few moments though, and I was quickly slurping up my gazpacho and feeling satisfied. So while I did whine and whimper, maybe even begged for a few seconds, I didn’t cave and no bread, meat, or chips touched my lips. I knew this would be hard and I know it will get easier. I’m happy that I got over the craving. Each time I beat it, it will get easier and easier. I’m proud of myself! So what DID I eat???…
Breakfast – BIG Fruit Bowl – Pear, Banana, Strawberries, Kumquats, Kiwi
Lunch – Cucumber Gazpacho (Leftover from yesterday. Flavors were more combined)
Snack – Fruit (1 sm slice watermelon, 2 sm slices honey dew, 2 grapes, 2 chunks of pineapple)
Dinner – Rawmazing Cheese Sauce over Carrot Noodles (Leftover. Added basil and other spices)
Dessert – Blueberry and Lavender Cheesecake!!
FYI – Totally had MORE than 64oz of water today. BOOYAH!
Est. Calories of the above - 1155
*Light & Love* ~ e.R.